Well, 2010, "feel it, it's here!!"....that's what it's like in the country @ the moment. Mna ke ngoku, where do I find myself in the midst of all this buzz and excitement in my country? Once I answer that, bet I can sort out how the rest of this year will go.
In my second year in the African Big Apple, all has not been smooth sailing but I'm still surviving. Personally and academically things have taken a slight turn, but I'm hanging in there. I have finally found a group of friends that comes close to my family in Grahamstown on so many levels, yet at the same time I seem to be regressing further when in their presence..now isn't that oxymoronic and ironic of me. Every night as I lay in my bed before I sleep, that initial question still rings in my ear. I would like to think I'm close to answering it, but truth is, through my own fears of risks, confidene(or lack thereof), I am nowhere near answering.
Let's further break this down, my love-life is a rope of the past that I'm hanging on to for dear life(mind you, holding onto the last strand). I am "c-blocking" myself from what's out there and in front of me somehow. "People" are starting to get worried. I have also potentially dug myself into a hole over a white-lie that could turn blue if not nipped in the bud anytime soon, but I think I can solve that. Monetarily, my situation is as was for the past 4 years....and that needs to change, ASAP. Hopefully, God and myself willing, I shall hit a purple-patch on all fronts.
In conclusion, I shall admit one impediment.....I AM A LAZY FOOL!!!! From what I've both seen and been hearing, that shall do me no favours in life, and especially here in JHB.....so I hope that my crash-course will do me justice, and turn me into the man(of greatness) that I know I'm destined to be. First thing's first though, let me navigate my way through these exams. In the words of Chris McCandless, "The true essence of man is in new experiences". On that note, I hope I am curious enough to explore, and venture out "into the wild' of my life.